Loneliness On The Path
by Bernhard Guenther, August 11, 2018
“Knowledge of processes in the background early
shaped my relationship to the world. Basically,
that relationship was the same in my childhood
as it is to this day.
As a child I felt myself to be alone, and I am
still, because I know things and must hint at
things which others apparently know nothing of,
and for the most part do not want to know.
Loneliness does not come from having no people
about one, but from being unable to communicate
the things that seem important to oneself, or
from holding certain views which others find
inadmissible. The loneliness began with the
experiences of my early dreams, and reached its
climax at the time I was working on the
unconscious.
If a man knows more than others, he becomes
lonely.
But loneliness is not necessarily inimical to
companionship, for no one is more sensitive to
companionship than the lonely man, and
companionship thrives only when each individual
remembers his individuality and does not
identify himself with others.”
– Carl Jung, “Memories, Dreams, and Reflections”
Many of us can relate to the sense and
experience of feeling alone as we shed the
matrix cultural/social programming and sincerely
start to seek truth. As we embark on the path we
start to learn (or oftentimes “remember”),
realize and begin to see a deeper reality within
and without us. This new “sight” is contrary to
what the masses believe in and how they live
their lives by. It is also contrary to whatever
we believed to be true at first. But there was a
“splinter in the mind”, a seed deep within that
inspired us to question what we’ve been told and
taught, most often after a period of intense
deeper suffering, responding to the yearning of
the soul’s call for Truth. It pushed us to
answer the call and step into the “unknown”…and
down the rabbit hole we tumble.
As we progress on our path going through our
trials, initiations and process of
disillusionment, truth starts to become stranger
than fiction. We can no longer relate to
pleasures and social interactions/enjoyments we
may have engaged in enthusiastically in the
past. Even past goals, ambitions and desires we
once had and were very attached to start to feel
completely foreign to us as we realize that most
of our so-called needs/desires/wants (including
group/tribe identifications) were based on lies
and Matrix programs which we mistook stemming
from our “true self” and do not lead us to (nor
reflect) true fulfillment, joy and love – the
pure state of our soul, hidden deep within us
beyond the ego-pesonality – our unique soul-
embodied individuality centered in and around
the Divine.
We start to see through appearances and all the
pretense: the mechanical, unconscious social
interactions, the unconscious feeding mechanisms
between people (emotionally, energetically,
sexually) where almost everyone is a copy of a
copy, automatons, sleepwalking and dreaming to
be awake. We realize how little of true
Individuality and authenticity there is in the
world and how people mistake their
conditioned/programmed ego-personality for
authenticity/individuality and also mistake all
kinds of feelings, desires, cravings within them
for their “soul being” (all of which we have
done in the past as well to varying degrees…and
still may do) – how little of TRUE love there
is. If we are really honest with ourselves, we
also question what love truly is and if we have
ever experienced it.
The more we uncover and work through our own
shadow aspects, our own mechanical programs, our
wounds and traumas, the more we see it in
others. As the masks fall away, we start to “see
the unseen” and a whole new world – the REAL
world – opens up. At first this view is not
pleasant at all and we may question our sanity.
Feelings of despair, depression, shame, guilt,
anger, sadness, loneliness, etc. come up.
Everything we have been hiding and have
suppressed for lifetimes starts to come to the
surface. The darkness within and without is
being made conscious as we descend into the
underworld. The higher we want to rise the
deeper we need to go. The more Light we possess,
the more darkness we uncover. It’s the esoteric
axiom/law of Descend and Ascend as the same
time.
“The higher one rises, the farther one is pulled
down. Evolution does not move higher and higher,
into an ever more heavenly heaven, but deeper
and deeper. Each evolutionary cycle closes a
little lower, a little nearer to the Center
where the supreme High and Low, heaven and
earth, will finally meet. The more Light [the
seeker] possesses, the more darkness he/she
uncovers.”
– Satprem
“None can reach heaven who has not passed
through hell.”
– Sri Aurobindo
If we are sincere in our process we start to
realize that we cannot blame others or anything
externally anymore but we are “forced” to take
full self-responsibility with radical self-
honesty. The more we awaken, the more we are
also confronted with the illusion of control the
ego likes to cling to. There is something else,
a higher (divine) force that is pulling us out
of inertia and sleep, asking us to surrender to
it while at the same time the lower forces want
to keep us chained to our past (trapped in the
victim/blame cycle), our wounds, programs and
identifications. These occult adverse forces use
temptations, ego hooks and thought injections,
targeting our blindspots, to keep us plugged in
the Matrix. Ultimately we realize that the
battle is and always has been THROUGH us.
We then also start to “see” and sense beyond our
five-sensory cognition the mighty occult
hyperdimensional forces that move/manipulate not
only us but all people like puppets with strings
attached. We realize that there is “something
else”, hidden from the mind of ordinary
consciousness, that controls and manipulates
human beings from occult realms, something that
feeds on humanity and keeps us in a frequency
prison of fear and survival based egoic Service
to Self (STS) consciousness.
We also start to see the wounds and traumas
people carry, masked and armored under a thick
social mask – disconnected from their bodies. In
fact, we start to see how most people suffer
deep inside but “don’t know” that they are
suffering for all the attention and energy is
used to escape it via externalizing and
projecting/suppressing their pain to avoid the
discomfort of feeling it. Like unconscious drug
addicts most people are constantly looking for a
“fix”, trying to fill a bottomless hole and
always looking for love and happiness “out
there”.
We then start to encounter humans who don’t seem
to have a soul but are empty shells, occupied by
“something else”. The eyes always give it away;
all of which becomes more obvious as we cleanse
our perception via internal work. We don’t get
fooled by appearances anymore. We begin to see
via inner vision and our guidance comes more and
more from within, not influenced by others or
our conditioned mind with all its fragmented
thought loops. We let go of comparison, ambition
and competition, the three “characteristics” of
the narcissistic STS frequency of the Matrix.
We then also realize that we have crossed the
point of no return. We cannot un-see what we
have seen and are increasingly seeing. We cannot
un-know what we have discovered, learned and
experienced.
“It follows that [the seeker] will become more
and more of a stranger to his surroundings; that
he will lose more and more interest in exterior
life, in which only yesterday he participated
fully. The appearance of things, and especially
of beings, undergoes a deep change in his eyes.
He will one day be surprised to constate that
certain faces which only yesterday he found very
beautiful now reveal to him marks of bestiality
behind their features: not all, but many of
them!”
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis
However, not only do we experience isolation and
loneliness, pulling back more and more from
exterior life, we also become subjected to the
projections and attacks of people still
“wandering in the wilderness” of the collective
Matrix program. We realize that long time
friends and even family members or our
spouse/partner are not at all who we “thought”
they were – that these connections were often
based on the illusion of love, social
programming, and we realize how we mistook love
for all kinds of behaviors, feelings, and things
that are not love but were based on wounds and
unconscious feeding mechanisms.
When we tell others about our discoveries and
realizations we are most often met with
ridicule, made fun of, or even attacked,
sometimes even “burned at the stake”. We are
being told that we are negative, crazy and live
in fear or engage in “fear mongering” when in
fact this reaction is their OWN unconscious fear
of the Truth projected on to us. It is their
false mechanical ego-personality trying to
protect itself from disillusionment with occult
forces working through them (using them as
unconscious Matrix agents) and attempting to
keep us from awaking, speaking truth and
anchoring the Divine Force. Hence, we also
realize that we cannot possibly take anything
personal anymore, because it is not “them” doing
anything. Moreover, these attacks and
interferences also serve a teaching function in
the bigger picture of the evolution of
consciousness and in the process of our unique
soul evolution for all there is are lessons.
These realizations and confronting the lies
we’ve been telling ourselves do indeed lead to a
disillusionment, a “moral bankruptcy”. It’s the
necessary “death” everyone has to go through to
be reborn in the true Self. It is the “way out”
of the Matrix.
“Nobody can reach the path of Access to the Way
[towards Awakening], without first passing
through an interior bankruptcy; a moral collapse
[disillusionment]. It is a classic situation.
From his side, after having passed through moral
bankruptcy, he who seeks the Way becomes
different from men who continue to live within
the limits permitted by the General Law
[Matrix], and thus take mirages for reality. Due
to this, he will feel himself more and more
isolated. The centre of gravity of his interest
will progressively turn to esoteric work, which
will end by absorbing him completely. The
‘World’ will be hostile to him, because its own
purposes are different. The day will come — if
he remains in the same milieu — where, apart
from rare exceptions he will be openly or
secretly hated.
If we ponder this in depth, we shall understand
that psychologically this hostile attitude of
the ‘World’ towards someone who carries on
esoteric work is not only a normal phenomenon
but is so to speak, a necessary one. If he who
lives in the wilderness — and is satisfied to be
there, were to approve of the attitude of one
who walks on the track, it would be equivalent
to recognizing his own bankruptcy. That is why
the ‘World’ considers the latter as a failure.
The more he progresses with his work, the more
he becomes an object of hate. That is why it is
said that: ‘no prophet is acceptable in his own
country’ and why ‘the prophet is despised in his
country, among his close relations and in his
own house.‘ ”
– Boris Mouravieff, Gnosis
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on-the-path/
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